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There is a switch. A secret one, that I don't even know where it's at. (like how the Doctor doesn't know he has an answer phone in his Tradis. lol) But when that switch gets turn on, my day goes bad.

Okay, maybe I do know what the switch is. It's property menu (autoCad style):

Name: stress

Layer: emotion

X-Length: 0.0000

Y-Length: 0.0000

Z-Lenght: 2345623.00000000 (depth)

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Stress goes long miles in me. When I'm stress, I get impatient, physically sick, angry easily.

The orgin of stress, most of the time, is frustration and lack of preparation. I don't get stress when I've rehearsed for months, I don't get stress when I studied, but I feel very stressed when I do homework. and study for quizzes.

It is something beyond my comprehension for this moment, that I feel stress for a 20 minute quiz but not a 75 minute long test. This is not just for one class, it's for many classes in all my schooling years. ugh. I can even draw a table to describe my week by stress level. Yes, tuesday have the least class for me and is my most stressful day. Always. It is ridiculous. How am I to live in peace if I'm stressed all the time?

Next week is the last week of classes huh? Well the stress level just went up another 5 miles in me.

I need encouragement, and reinforcement that I am capable and already made perfect. My effort does not make at all a difference in the big picture. Seriously, THE BIG PICTURE of heaven on earth.