Another day in PA

It is so warm this afternoon in central PA one cannot wear more than a sweater. I was wearing a sweater and a little of walking made me sweat. It is suppose to be the day before February.

February, one of my favorite and craziest month of the year. Tests, projects, quizs, homework, meetings, studying, test-preps are kicking in, but Jubilee (http://www.jubileeconference.com/) is also approaching. I expect to be occupied by work all the time. Can't say busy is a bad thing, I like feeling busy, but it is a horrible idea for community living. Takes alot of grace and forgiveness. I don't think a fast paste life is wrong, but I know we are called to live for each other. I'm seeing the blessings and curses of this fast paste life at the moment, through my residential hall experience, classmate interaction, ministry life, personal life, restlessness, academic life, and much more. It is neat to see the good side, but I won't weight what I lost, because I can't, it's the sacrifice I must make. Please stop dragging me back.

And if I talk like a technical nerd, it's because I am. Take it as a practical joke, my dry humor is what I make my living out of.

In response to John Foreman's Making Art Out Of Tension

A blog entry by the vocal of Switchfoot, John Foreman, note that life is a fight of making sense in the sadness, and aiming live good. (to read the post: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jon-foreman/vice-verses-making-art-ou_b_974302.html) He uses music and lyrics to express this fight, hence the birth of Vice Verse, Switchfoot's latest album (that I'm addicted to). I love that it is not about being perfect all the time, but rather the effort to find good in others and yourself. We are bound to fail, that is why life is full of tension. Tension born from unanswered question we ask. This tension, looks like modern dance to me.

modern dance, heavily rooted in the ballet technique, yet is not ballet. It's a form of dance many people don't understand because it's more abstract than jazz or ballet. To a professional dancer like Emily Adam (Jubilee speaker last and this year), modern dance is a physical art form that celebrates humanity. It can be light hearted, but more often it is heavy, and dark, and mad. (see example video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jt4AGMWJ30c) Why the mystery? It is because modern tries to make sense of human, exploring topics like movement, existence, relationships, friendship, war, imagination etc. (Yes, these are real topics portraits in real modern dance number, I've seen it) In modern dance, one tries to recognize we are made out of flash but we can do something beautiful with it. With we can't arrive to the beauty, at least explore it.

To a dance for fun dancer like myself, the physicality of modern dance is more like African dance and less similar to ballet. Modern dance uses the form of ballet, but connects one to the ground like in African (dance). Modern dancers don't wear pointe shoes like ballerinas because they don't try to defy human autonomy; they don't wear shoes at all. Dancing on barefoot allows the dancer to properly connect to the ground he or she is dancing on. The lack of shoes cause more friction of the sole, sometimes one needs to fight the ground to move, and sometimes one embrace the friction to stay in a posture. Using this friction to your benefit, learning to dance with it but not bound is an art.

Now back to the making art out of tension. That itself, is a character of modern dance. What do you see in that youtube video? dancers bouncing and bending and stretching in various ways to create movements. In less than 3 minutes you see a (dance) piece is created from more than one movement, there are people doing different things in any given moment. The difference between on an other is a contrast! And contrast is tension to the viewing eyes. Despite the tension, the dynamic is quick and swift, or it can be slow and quiet! It depends on the how far into the dance and the circumstances. In a life time there are too many things that press us to act a certain way, but that doesn't mean we should be press against.

word

my ability to express thought in any solid and well constructed word is... not there. That part of my brain is underdeveloped. So desperate that it makes me to avoid posting on the blog.

The things that happened in the last 48 hours, as I see it, is a relieve from the past 3 months. The final pow. Understand it, analysis it, learn from it, live with it, and stop letting it bother you. The flesh will always die. Get over it. I apologize for being ignorant.

We all need some air to breath. Drowning in this desperate tribute won't help us to process what lesson can we learn from JoePa's love for PennState.

f(x)=……

This mathematical symbol represents what the science nerds call “function”. Function is a brunch of knowledge within the infinitely brilliant pool of knowledge in math…. Well, it is not as difficult as it sound. Like the cash we use everyday, function is a tool engineers, scientists use to solve problems everyday. With it, most everything can be summarize in one math “sentence”. It is a wonderful thing, not only because it has to do with math, but also because it describes the fundamental meaning of life in the way God sees it.

What makes me to say that?

A function consist of 3 parts.

1) An equation (the “…….”, it is the part the differentiate a function to another one),

2) the result (the solution) showing what the function can do,

3) and the domain (the “x”, which represent a number). The domain defines where the function yields useful solution. An analogy here is domain is like the right plug for your electronic appliance, the right plug links for you a useful equipment while the wrong plugs leave you with a piece of useless tool can’t be plugged in.

As you can see, the domain is essential to a function, without it (and the correct one) a function provides nothing for us to use.

When God created human, he sees us as

1) beautiful creation, uniquely different from one and other (___)

2) with capability to do all things (Gen 11:6),

3) Dependent to Him. (John 14:6)

God designed human to perform the best when we live in his order, his realm. This suggest for us the produce the best result in life, we must put in the domain we are made for. The other domains will work okay, but not as nearly as good.

why the hack 2012

Ever thought that classes are much harder than you anticipate? Well it's hard because they are scheduled at 8am, 5 times a week..... All the excitement for new school year fades away way way too quickly. oh well..

I close my eyes and go back in time
I can see you’re smiling, you’re so alive
we were so young, we had no fear
we were so young, we had no idea
that life was just happeninglife was just happening

.....

I close my eyes and go back in time
you were wide-eyed, you were wide-eyed
we were so young, we had no fear
we were so young, we had just begun
a song we knew, but we never sang
it burned like fire inside our lungs
and life was just happening (and nothing lasts, nothing lasts forever)
and life was just happening (and nothing lasts, nothing lasts forever)
I wouldn’t trade it for anything
my souvenirs.

Souvenirs, Switchfoot

what happened in 2011?

My friend did a personal survey for 2011, so I'm stealing her idea.

What did you do in 2011 that you've never done before?

Studied 2 days for a test

African Dance, and commit to it

work in an engineering firm

sublet at a place

saw my first broadway musical

new method to organize my stuff, and it works!

sponsor a child in Ghana

etc.

Did you keep your New Year's resolution and will you make one for this year?

To not be transparent in faith and life. This one is always one the list

Pass FE exam

make money/work more

Did anyone close to you give birth?

No

Is Anyone close to you pregnant?

Yes

Did anyone close to you die?

A member of my old church died from cancer. Didn't know her well except when she helped me on school application once or twice three years ago.

Did anyone close to you get married?

Rachel and Yoshi (Jan), Steve and Emily (May)

Did anyone close to you get engaged?

Yes

What countries did you visit?

No not this year, sadly

What date(s) from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory?

Jubilee (Feb), seeing friends from New Ken again, and the memories of food room.

Summer in Boston. Last summer in Boston, dare I say. It used to be my home. It was great to hang out with my church mates again.

Hot dogs, with elements, as always.

Spring break in Philly with ACF. At least ig should be memorable, and it was. From the abundant bank to sharing a tiny sad shower with all the girls.

etc.

What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?

um... what a question. I don't see short in most things. It was a good and full year, and I know 2012 will be another good and full year, but even better.

What's your biggest achievement this year?

summer job in a commercial firm.

Pick up a new form of dance

Start my minor degree in the fall

searching for a life long career/specific job

Biggest failure?

Didn't study hard enough in the spring.

Did you suffer illness or injury?

Being sick on the last 2 days of spring break, and remain sick for an other week.

What was the last thing you bought?

A camera, cost me $157

Whose behavior merited celebration?

Connor Jennings for finishing his first semester in college ever!

Sally Mei for being a good sister and continue to learn in school, family, and Christ

Jess Kazcor for living away from home for the first time

Parents for working very hard in their business

Where did most of your money go?

music/sponsoring/musical tickets (NYC and SC)/fun

What did you really get excited about?

Jubilee, Spring Break, birthday present for myself, to start fall semester, etc.

What song will remind you of 2011?

Brave by Idina Menzel, the song I used to choreograph my first dance (ballet).

Blinding light by Switchfoot

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

duh, course is happier, because it's good to feel accomplished. This is thank to my awesome circle of company. Strangely my journal is a member of this company, but that's the way it's been.

What do you wish you'd done more of?

Do more research for career day.

Take pictures.

Time for girls chat..?

Time to sit and care for others

What do you wish you'd done less of?

youtube?facebook? I don't know how much time I spend on each but I'm sure is a good bit of my life.

What was your favorite TV show?

Doctor Who, Sherlock, White Collar

What were the best books you read?

Happiness of Architecture

What was your best musical discovery?

The Generous Mr. Lovewell

Vice Verses

Next to Normal

Peter Adams Bradley

What did you want and got?

A summer job

What movies did you see in cinema?

Sherlock Holmes 2

various Hub movies

What did you do on your birthday? How old did you turn?

nothing much on that day, but I went to see Wicked musical 2 days later. Not enough to go to the bar yet.

What one thing would have made this year more satisfying?

Be on the Deans list?

How would you describe your personal fashion?

T-shirt and jeans. sneakers.

What kept you sane?

School

Elements activity

School

Nommo

work-study

School

Who was the best new person you met?

Mugisha/Connor

What was a valuable lesson you've learned?

Put your time in well use. Not be transparent.