Too fast?

3rd year in this prestigious academic program, it is quite a challenge to keep my world speed align with the speed of our professors. It's a hurricane we must not go under. If we do, well, we depend our groupmates to pull us back on board. If we go under together, we work it out together. Nothing is a miracle, just hard work, wisdom, and perseverance. There have been too many #AEproblem jokes, too many days without enough sleep, too much studying to do, too little time, too anxious about grades, and too many deadlines to meet. In a life spinning at that speed, most of my time is spend on AE, retreat (to retrieve my sanity), and ministry with Elements. Truely there is only too little time left after that (not even for my beloved dance).

Most of the time it feels like school dominates the speed I'm living in. It flies so fast I have to ride on race cars to keep up with life, hence, the world around me seems slower. Someday I pitty all the things I've missed, but fortunately sympathy is an emotion I too rarely experienced, so it don't seem too bad.

I'm convince that you can't slow me down. I'd rather go so fast that no one can catch up to me then slow down. Day by day I run on an accelerating speed, since the day I was born. You may not understand it, because you weren't born in Asia. If you were, you understand what I mean by "since birth". Competition with other children in school, to thrive to be "the best", to be compared with others, I was born in the pressure led me to motivate myself. Now in college, studying in a field where information is updated every 3 years; our curriculum changes every semester. Looking at my future, I found life goals I must strive to meet, weather with others or alone (though hopefully not alone). It seems that nothing can slow me down. If you try to I will abandon you.

Yes, I realize accelerating speed is a good thing, and a very bad thing. I realize my life goes beyond my speed, and the world does not revolve around my speed. For many people, they don't care if everything is going in a goldfish speed (think of the speed a goldfish goes), that is how they learn, how they work. And if you and I strike up a conversation, I am willing to slow down for one or two hours.

Seems strange to live in slower speed, but its my fault for not having "slow" written in my biological program.