Easter monster

It's that time of the year. When spring comes and nature is singing in joyful song, I come down with depression. Thinking about school, relationships for the past year, next year, stuff, and more other stuff..... Pre-Easter is my personal demon, it haunts me every year and make me sad, and above all, slacking with God.

I won't put it pass myself and unseen spiritual forces, but its annoying that every year I feel worse of life around this time. To fight this mess myself is not working, one. I don't even know what is it that I'm sad about, two. For the later, partly its anxiety and stress from school. The stress in studying is unreasonably high for me in this month. Trying to fight for survival, the chance always look brim. Eventhough it's 100% survival rate.