no I have not neglect my life all together, I just prefer writing in my physical journal than on the blog. Hand writing is a nice thing after every full day of computer typing/stirring.

So yah, we have been talking about big companies do not valuate personal value/community value as much as they cherish money.
We've been talking scarcity happens to everything, even to the energy we consume alot. We consume energy as if it is unlimited, even our head believe the opposite is the truth.
I really can't judge how to conserve energy. should we reserve the energy and not use it for anything, or use the energy responsibly but totally enjoy the fun it provides.... maybe the question is, if we are to be responsible to energy usage, how can we help to not abbuse the system, that people around the world can gain equal access to those energy as we can? how can we strive for a more rightous world and equal world? a better world.
Everyone is trying to do good for this world, even non Christians. We try to work for the better good. But until we work with God, I know all the work that we do is going to be futile, because we are perishable beings, and we do not know how to build system that is pure and good that can last for a long time. Some, not alot, succeed to build such a system without God's presence. They have the wisdom.
Altimately, it is the glory of God that matters in the end. I believe it because I know this comes from the words I depend my life apon. This faith comes from learning how little I can control my life. Here's the thing, I live my whole life trying to be good and distingtively good, to not do the wrongs. It is easy to ignore mistakes in life but only focus on what has been successful. No one like s to live a failing life. I don't want to feel like a failure any second in my life, or even just feel like I'm not doing things successfully.
But I guess meakness, weakness have nothing to do with a successful life. By definition the lack of something do not define meak or weak or success. These values/lessons don't have definition that contradicts themselves, they only describe a different situation that the one that I've been living in.

Again, it comes down to love God and love your neighbor. The rest follows these two commandments. God first, loving neighbor second, academic third.